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i got nothing to update actually. but think of been so long didnt update my blog. feel kinda sorry for myself. hahhaa. ermm.. feel kinda sad lately. i feel that me n his distance become so far away now. even sometime i think of to break up is the best choice. cos im get sick of the drama. i really cant handle it. i mean i did say ok to let you do the things that you want but that things make me feel so stress. this is my first time to have a bf. i dont know what should i react at this point and im sad. i mean when im single i always wish to have a bf. but now i wish to return to be single. maybe i say this kinda word will hurt you. but i just cant help it. it is letting me feel so stress. i feel that all the things i do lately is so like uncomplete and never gona reach my goal. like spm mock exam, relationship and car. shit hell!!!! im sick!! i even feels that you are already get sick of me. and please dont say you are not. cos i can feel it. maybe you been so busy but thats not the point. watever. when it is mean to be end and its gonna end. and dont even feel sorry for me. cos is not what u wish to happen, i know. but its happen and is the fact now. nothing can make things feel better as long as you are busy with ur stuff. and i had told you that i feel awkward when everytime you ask me out. and the problem is still there. i dont know what to do now. and im sorry if i hurt you. but im hurt too.