Understand

Lately, i listen to one of my friend say something about her and her bf. She told me a lot. I realised that we cant see everything in just the cover. We really have to understand whats is the real thing inside every single of them. In who we met and always thought he/she is good for us. Not that everytime he/she treat you before u two get together then he/she will treat you that way forever. I always thought that they are the best couple ever. I always thought they are so good in everything even they can appreciate each other and can handle everything so well. But after she told me everything about them then i understand that it isnt the way we see everyday. And actually between them theres lots of problems that they dont know and cant solve. So i really understand that not that everything u thought will be the same as the others. She ever told me that i must appreciate mine ((him)). She told me her bf and her story and told me that we really can make it if we stay longer and be patience as she does with her bf. But now?! She had lose all her confidence in her bf. Theres so much happening between every single couple in the world. Only when you found the ONE then you wont even care if theres any obstacles.

Love. Love? Love!

Love

Love is a huge thing for me. That i will never gonna let it ruin my life. I want a brand new love so much but i just cant get it. The brand new love that i meant is a guy/family's member/buddies/friends can always stand at my side think and know whats is good for me, whats is not. Whats is best for me but not too over the top. What i should do and what i shouldnt do. And they dare to tell me. Attitude for me is so important. I had been change a lot compared to the passed. If there is someone who want me to change for him/her again then he/she should be considering thats does he/she has the quality to ask me do so. If you yourself cant make it then just stop trying to ask someone change. Change is so hard for a person to make it. It is easier when that person got into a big matter that shock him/her to realised and started to change his/her whole life. But for those who is not really into the mood of listening to someone who always wanted her/him to change then just stop forcing them. Or else they will feel so frustrating and started to get irritated by those people who keep asking them to change. Love is so huge till that it can melts all the anger, sadness, tragedies and uncomfortable situation down. So when a love person who ask to change for him/her maybe you will really listen if its not too serious. But for those who really dont understand whats love mean ((including me)) then he/she will feel angry or maybe sad cos of their companion asking them to change and as this situation happens it will lead to a quarrel. And started to killing each other feeling and sooner they will strated to get irritated of their love ones. Or maybe some of them will feel even more loving each other as they get to know more from each other. Couples out there..please be thinking clearly before you quarrel with your love ones.

p/s. i love this song so much. the lyrics meant a lot for me. enjoy!!

Closed off from love I didn’t need the pain Once or twice was enough And it was all in vain Time starts to pass Before you know it you’re frozen But something happened For the very first time with you My heart melts into the ground Found something true And everyone’s looking round Thinking I’m going crazy But I don’t care what they say I’m in love with you They try to pull me away But they don’t know the truth My heart’s crippled by the vein That I keep on closing You cut me open and I Keep bleeding Keep, keep bleeding love I keep bleeding I keep, keep bleeding love Keep bleeding Keep, keep bleeding love You cut me open Trying hard not to hear But they talk so loud Their piercing sounds fill my ears Try to fill me with doubt Yet I know that the goal Is to keep me from falling But nothing’s greater Than the rush that comes with your embrace And in this world of loneliness I see your face Yet everyone around me Thinks that I’m going crazy, maybe, maybe But I don’t care what they say I’m in love with you They try to pull me away But they don’t know the truth My heart’s crippled by the vein That I keep on closing You cut me open and I.... Keep bleeding Keep, keep bleeding love I keep bleeding I keep, keep bleeding love Keep bleeding Keep, keep bleeding love You cut me open And it’s draining all of me Oh they find it hard to believe I’ll be wearing these scars For everyone to see I don’t care what they say I’m in love with you They try to pull me away But they don’t know the truth My heart’s crippled by the vein That I keep on closing You cut me open and I.... Keep bleeding Keep, keep bleeding love I keep bleeding I keep, keep bleeding love Keep bleeding Keep, keep bleeding love You cut me open and I.... Keep bleeding Keep, keep bleeding love I keep bleeding I keep, keep bleeding love Keep bleeding Keep, keep bleeding love You cut me open and I Keep bleeding Keep, keep bleeding love.

Bleeding Love Music Video

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=sF84pIhP5UM

Tragedy..

Today was a mess for me. Cos my english FAILED!! I mean wth?! I cant believe and accept that my english FAILED. Im gonna let my dad scold till like hell. He care my english so much. Everytime i only got 6o++ then he already say my english like shit. Now.. FAILED?! I mean wat will he say? Maybe he will just keep silent and never care about my result anymore. That will be even more worst. Dammit!! How can this happens to me. I should let this tragedy happens to me for only once. ONCE!!!!!! There will never be twice. NEVER!! I gonna work hard and maybe i will get another english course before i go in to a college. If my english is already failed in high school what result am i gonna get when i got in college? I should really work hard on every subject even im not really bad in it. Work hard!! This is an advise to me. A lesson. A lesson which taught me never be so on top even ur english got the basic. I should still work harder and harder with the things i got now. Messed.

holidays

Its holidays again but its only two days. Im having a hard time now cos im feeling sick. Why the disease wana find me? I dont get it. I wana stay healthy for a long long time also cant make it. Today is holidays cos of someone who is big 'hook' bday celebration so we get a holiday. Tomorrow is a holidays cos is our beloved Jesus shou nan day. Tonight i got to go church cos of Jesus last supper. Later im going to math tuition as because next week we got zhong ze. Wth?!! Holiday still tuition? Hais.

Just now Hian msg me and told me that my sista Veronica was in the newspaper for the NS stuff. Then i went to grab my ah ma's newspaper and read about wat she told the poparazzi. She said that she was scare when the next day she have to go for the NS. Lol. Poor little girl. You will be fine. 3 months will be fly away just for you. And wish you all the best even though u cant read my post now. But, when u came back you can read. So i will help her to pray. Love ya!!

Holidays happiee!! xoxo.

Sista*Veronica

Veronica, my beloved sista. You are going to the stupid and suffering NS!! Really gonna miss you like hell. Im honestly telling you that i started to miss you since the last time we met the other day. I really hope that you will take good care of urself and dont get sick easily ya?? misses. hugs. love. love. love. XOXO.

Bday*Surprises

Today is mine Bday!! Not gonna celebrate as i had already celebrated the other day. Like today is not my bday. Feeling so weird that i dont have cake this year. But i have already ask my mom buy, dont know will she buy. I want cake!! I want TWO!! I used to had three cake for a bday. But this year i got none. Im sad.

Last night i found out that theres someone who i know birth at the same date as me. Mely!!! Haan's cousin. So happy to know that. She is a sweet gurl, i think. Though i dont know her very well. Then last night i msg her and told her about this surprising news. Cos i was really over the top. Lol. I just feel happy and surprise to know that she birth at the same date as me even though she is older than me one year. 18th & 19th. Surprise, surprise!!

HAPPIEEEE BDAE!!!!!!!!!!

Hang Out..

Today i went to school to take my SPM result. My result was like shit man! But, honestly i dont really care about that. Cos for me UEC is more important than this. So i gonna work very hard on my UEC. Cos my dream is to go Singapore find a job and help my mum some more. Cos i know she is really very suffering about all the expenses that she have to paid on us everyday. Kinda heart pain to see her have to suffer everyday. But useless of me, always know that she is suffering but i just cant control myself to stop wasting all the stupid $ thats shouldnt be wasted. I really have to think clearly everything before i buy it. Now i always spent my mum's $. I promise myself have to find a good and steady job to help out my mum. Im gonna let her happy.

Anyway, today i went to Spring. To help Vero celebrate her bday earlier cos she is going to NS soon which she gonna miss her bday. At first she didnt know that we were about to help her celebrate her bday. We went to Sushi King eat. The foods for me was just 'ok'. But Hei was so pissed off cos the food she ordered was not nice at all. Btw, we bought present for her. Hei bought four slice of cake for her. Then we all get to taste. Its so nice. I love the marble cheese cake. Its nice! Love it. Then i bought a pretty notebook for her which i "bu she de" use want. Then i wrote quite a few words inside for her and colour it. Hope she will like it. An earing also, is pinkie. And Chia bought a hp case for her, is catty.

Im happy today. I saw a pair of shoe, so nice. Is from Nose. But i didnt get to buy it cos i dont have any $$ anymore. If i use all the money in my wallet then i have to eat grass this whole month. Lol. So i cant buy. I got think wana ask my mum to buy but she already shorts of money, how i "ren xin" ask her to buy again. But Hei bought it, its maroon colour. I love the greenie want. Hope that i can go there some other time and still got the chance to buy it when i got $. Hopefully.

Thats my day. I went home at 5pm. Late lo. Already have my dinner also. Got nothing to do. Home alone. Wana blog somemore but dont know got what to blog about. So i guess i just have to stop here.

p.s. tomorrow!! 13 MARCH. Its my Bday!! hehhehe.

My Early Bday Party.

Last night i celebrated my Bday earlier. I looked pretty, i think. Lol.

You know what? Among all the girls friends, i love Vero. She is the prettiest last night. Love her so much. We been quite a long time didnt hang out and see each other, last night was a bit feeling strange. But at last we sang 3 english song together. All my friends told me that i should just sing english songs the whole night cos my sound suit to sing english but chinese was eww... i think. I miss sista. They were my best best buddies ever. No one can take over their place in my heart. They will always be the only sista in heart forever. I love them. Im glad that they can come over and celebrate my Bday with me as maybe this is the last year we celebrate each other Bday together. How i wish it wont be the last year. I wish we will always contact each other whenever and wherever we are. Can we?

Last night the foods was nice. I didnt eat that much cos i was busy serving my customer as my friends. Taking pictures. Sista was the hottest. All of them come over to help us take pic once we start to take picture. See? Hottest? Lol.

I received a Loreal Volume Mascara, a THEFACESHOP eyeshadow & lipgloss, Bling Bling jacket that i wanted for so long ((thanks to Dancat and the others)), a perfume. Niceee!! Love it all.

Some the others still not yet buy me cos they say its not yet 13th but just hope them wont forget about it. Mwahahahha ((evil laughter)).

My night ends with karaoke and the last night who was with me is my beloved sista, Vero!! Love u. xoxo. hugs!!! misses you so much. Glad to see u last night.

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Lately feeling so tired cos for all the test in our school lately. Today i just finished two

subject then tomorrow i have another to go through. Im sick man. Wth?! Sick. Help

me~

This saturday is my Bday party celebration. Im happiiee. Im gonna enjoy every single

minute of that night. Im turning 18!! Im a adult, am i? Lol.

18th Bday Party!!

XOXO

HUGGIES

Creepy....

Lately theres some creepy things happens around my life.Theres a creepy guy who sms me and ask me to transfer some money for him. At first i really thought he is our classmate but then i cant send cos my phone was registered. Then he ask me to give him my friends phone as if they got money and is not registered. But i didnt.. I thought he was one of my annoying friend then i didnt reply him. He got my number from Ding Ding. Then the next day i went to school and i heard one of my buddy Dorothy said she sent rm28 to a guy last nite. Then i was like 'omg?'. That guy got hers number from Ding Ding also. Even Ding Ding also dont know who he is but she was too naive, she thought he is one of our classmate and at last no one know who that guy is. At first me and Dorothy were so pissed off how can Ding gave someone she dont know ours number and is for transfer money?! But she apologized. Then i think everyone will make mistakes in their life and why shouldnt we forgive and forget?! Right? Lol. Till now we still dont know that guy, he still ever said that he will pay us back if we transfer and if we wanted to know who he is then when he paid us back then we will know. I mean wth?? He never exist. Then after transfering the money he still always msg Dorothy about wanting her to watching A's movie with him. Omgoodness?! So yuky!!! Every night he called and msg Dorothy and Ding. Double D's is having a big disturbing time now. I asked them when that guy call again just tell him that u girls wanted to call the police now. So creepy..

Then the next creepy and boring things is from our class. Theres been a he or she keep writing a chinese passage about all the stuff happens in our class and stick it on my board. But we dont know who is he or she. He or she know everthing happens in our class, surely is our classmate. But is just so creepy to everyday see this kinda thing. He or she is still said "soon enough i will appear, dont worry. And wait for the next passage." I mean..ewww.. Im so scare and feel so horrible. Why isit theres so many creepy things happens lately? I odnt like this kinda feeling. making our life so not normal.

If you "siao chao" is reading my blog i wana let u know please stop doing all this stupid and boring stuff it will just make our class even more not cooperate nia. So just please stop. Dont you have anything more important than this to do?? STOP!!!