Loving..

Loving my life right now. Even though sometimes it get really tired and sick but still loving it. Cos having the kinda of life that has nothing happens and always stay in a peace and loving situation is so much better than letting something bad happens. Everyday test but already start to get used for a new year start.

Loving friends and buddies can hang together everyday. Mingled here and there. So happy!! No longer can we have the time like now. So appreciate!! Getting better to know more friends and leaving school without any regrets. Even i cant study anymore i will still work hard to earn more money to give my mum. Cos she always buy everything that i asked her to ((most)). So after i graduated i think is my turn to give back my mum. But if my parents want me to continue university then i will just listen to them and after graduate from uni then can get a better job.

Hope that everyone will be happy and appreciate everything that u have right now.Not that everyone can be like us. We are so much better than the others when we get to compared to the others from Africa. Loving...

Sadness..

Last few days i cried because one of my church friend pass away during the Valentine's Day. I know it from the newspaper. It was a shocked news for me. At first i didnt think of anything as we never talk before but we will see each when we go to church. He is a 50++ year old man. He got a pretty young wife and a son and a daughter. I was so admire his daughter cos she is so pretty and white. So everytime when i go to church i would wish to see her but last year didnt see her for quite a long time then suddenly this year knowing the news it was really shocked. Then when i went to school i suddenly think of this news then i told my friends about it. One of my emo friend, when i told her i didnt expect that i will cry but then after i told her, in a sudden her eye were full of water. In my heart i think that she gona cry then i didnt even finish telling her then my sound already start shaking... I was crying. Cos its really hurt to seeing someone who u love or someone who even u dont know but u always get to see him/her leaving.

Today i cried. Everyone will be wondering that why i everyday cried. Cos today i was so sad about a friend who always keep helping my ex to ask me to get back with him. I know she was just caring and really hope that i will get back with my ex. But u know what? I cant afford any pressure anymore. Cos she sound like i broke up with my ex was all my fault. I mean.. c'mon, it wasnt the way u think how it was. U always stand at the side of his to think but do u ever stand at my side to think? No one ever does. Is always my fault to broke up with a guy who really loves me. MY FAULT!! Im not blaming u girl. I just wana "fa xie" on my blog. But if u cant understand me then i got no words to say. Actually u know after we broke up i still got a bit of "hao gan" towards him but now. Letting people keep asking me all the WHY questions. Im sick of this question and topic now. I dont know.

I no need any boyfriend not even the guy ((han song)). He is totally not my type. I dont want any boyfriend. Having the first boyfriend last time already so much drama. I cant imagine having the second one. I rather be a old lady. Just kidding. Lol. Tired!!!!!!!!


*Tomorrow is holiday. Going to have tuition on the morning then hang out with dancat.* Happiiie. ^^ Love ya'll. xoxo.

Happiiee Valentines Day!!

I got a surprise today from my ex. He bought a flower with a card and something like wire make it into my name and a love shape. Actually im really happy but i really dont have the "like" feeling anymore. I dont know why. Just dont have it anymore. But still i want him to be my best fren and always greet each other no matter wat the situation we are having now. Lol. ^^ Thanks a lot for d flower. This is the first time i received flower in my life. Hahhaha. Im happiiiee. And Han Song also gave me a flower just now. The first time already get to received two flower?! Super happy. Am i lucky enough? I mean not that every girl can be like me. Im not showing off!! I just have to think that im lucky, have to be satisfied.

And the disipline teacher very disturbing today. We all so angry about it. Cos he say that we cant put the flower in our class as he say that it is not good to have the present thing in our class cos it will disturb the mood of study. Then we all shout back towards him. He shout even louder than us and we just let him take away our flower. Mine didnt get to let him take awaycos i put into the drawer which my classmate had absent today. The stupid dicipline teacher didnt discover mine. Luckily.. Lol.

As the others couples wait till the last recess just give the flower to their lover. Lol. Our class has too many couple. They all get to received a bouquet of flower and my buddy ((Ashley)) was so high and keep running here and there to help those couple to take picture with the flower. Actually it is so happy to see them. Just happy for the mood today. Even the other classes also come over and enjoy the mood with us. ^^ So proud of our class. We dare to play, dare to do everything that the others dont dare. Lol. Like the girls in our class is more than the boys. The first class of arts side, in everyone's mind should think that we must be very dumb and always study very hard and very "kiasu" want. BUT.....we are NOT. Most of us know how to dress-up ourselves and know that we can play whenever we want to. Not like the others, they dont really know how to dress-up and always in a situation of study ((i mean nobody, just examples)). Hehhe. Main point is we still study hard in a limit, not too over. ^^

*HaPpY VaLeNtInEs DaY*

Looking Towards..

Theres quite a lot of stuff and things that im looking towards to. Like the school life as it is the last year im looking forward for a great result and gona have a great relationship with my school buddies. Every single of them is my best friends. Especially the other day went visiting 14 houses in a day and spent the whole day time with some of my classmates. Loving them. Cos they make me smile and living happily eveyday although sometime they make me feel a bit angry, it doesnt matter! Cos dont take the sad things too serious then it doesnt matter in ur heart although it really do sometime.

The horses for 1990 is super bad luck this year. For those who believe that chinese traditional stuff and if ur bday is not yet over you MUST have a great celebration for it as the prayer book said for those who birth at 1990 must have a celebration for ur bday and it will help you "hua zai" means keep away all the bad lucks!! If you believe so.

I hope that theres nothing happens. I mean something bad. Everyone should live happily each day. Appreciate. And as im a horse too. Then im gona celebrate my bday at Sarawak Club. Not gona invite that much people. I only get to invite 20 people. So im just gona invite who were quite good with me and accompany me through my bday. Im so excited about it. Gona wear beautifully and make-up and just stand there and keep my presents(( hopefully theres some)). I know my bday still got a long way to go. 13th March. Actually is not really that long yet la. Im so excited about it. Happiie!!

The last stuff im looking towards is having to buy a new phone. The phone that im dreaming for some of time. Is motorola pinkie!! I love that pink~ Hopefully i can buy it soon. My stupid sony ericsson already "siao ki". Hais. Lol.

Heres the last paragraph. As tomorrow is a valentines day! I wishes everyone for a great V-day!! Love ya all!! xoxo. hugs.

Its A Love Stuff

I cant believe that the new year holidays just ended like that?! I mean i didnt even have the mood for CNY? Dont know why this year so weird. Anyway i still happy that i got more ang pao compared to last year. Im happy la. Cos i wanted to save more $$ to buy a new phone. Out there is too many thing which is so attractive. Many till we cant stop buying them. But the most hard job is to earn more $$ to buy all the stuff we wanted to buy.

Btw, my cousin who came from Kuala Lumpur is going back later. Im gona miss him so much. I hope that he and his family will come again next year. He is so handsome and funny. Love him!! Lol. Im goin to the airport and send him back. This couples days he make feel happy. = ) We taken a lot of pictures cos as he always say that he have to take many of pictures here to pass up the homework which means that his mum wanted him to take and let them know how were all the families members here. ^^ Last night we went out for dinner together. It was fun. But the food were not that nice and it was so expensive. We never gona go there anymore. Last night was the first time also the last time. Lol.

School has reopen. Dont really have the mood to study hard. The first day then i get two subject fails. Chinese and Math. 46% AND 0%. "Amazing"?! It kills my mood. But i already knew that i will 0% for the Math cos i really dont know how to do. But i promise myself that i gona work hard on it, try my best. Actually today i have a Math tuition but the stupid teacher cancel it. I really gona study hard for my Math and Bm. I think that this my bm is goin to pass. Hopefully!! ^^.

Lately theres a boy named Han Song. Who i know him form my cousin. He is older than me. He told me he like me the other day. And i told him that i got a bit of "hao gan" towards him also. But we not gona ON yet cos i told him that i wana study hard this year and i not yet feeling enough for my single life. So we just having a "ai mei" situation. He is actually a great guy. He dont smoke and actually he not really know how to drink alcohol. He just can drink a bit. Anyway i dont know him that well yet so i still have to think about it. And study is most important thing for me now. So good luck to myself and everyone!!

Love Dancat and Sista. xoxo. Huggies!!

*Chinese New Year*

Its almost new year. I had already buy finish my new year's clothes. I think..Lol. I guess that buy new clothes will never ends cos u will never feel thats enough. Lolxs. I mean for vain girls la.

Ermm...actually our school will just start the holidays on the next tuesday but then today during our chinese period our principal get the speaker and told all the students that tomorrow is our last day of school. All of the students were so happy!! They were all screaming for happiness. Hahaha. Thats what the wild students do when they just hear or do something that makes them high. Lol. Im included.

Nothing much happen lately. Just peace and quiet in my life. It is a good sign la. Dont know why Xian and Ding keep asking me do i still like Hian. They keep on asking me to get back with him and say that he is really a good guy. I know he is really a good guy but as i always tell u girls that im not sure about my feeling. Dont you think that in a love relationships that feeling is the most importants thing?? Maybe you girls really dont understand my feeling la. Xian, i know you will tell me that i shouldnt take it so serious or dont so care about it. But you know?? I really want feelings. Like no feelings not just i scare i will hurt him again, i also will get pang huang. I will starts to think so much and always feeling down so easily. Thats why la. So please stand at my side to think about it, not just him. Maybe is because i say wanted to broke up so you all just think that i feel that he is not good enough(which actually he is)and so on. I dont know. I need time to heal everything. Is already senior3, so all of us should really "pia".

Lastly i want to let my Sista and Dancat and the others best friends to know.. I love all of you so much. I dont care whats gona happens on the following minute i will love you all till the day i pass away. *sob* =.=" Lol.